Secrets and Satin: A MacKenzie Novel (Romantic Suspense) (MacKenzie Family) Read online

  Max leaned forward and took a straining bud between his lips. She’d never been able to come more than once when she made love, but she could feel the low hum of desire building inside of her once more.

  “Wait—God, Max,” she pushed against his chest, but he grasped her hips and rolled her pussy against him. Her eyes rolled back in her head and her lashes fluttered closed at the sensation. It was all too fast. Too much. She didn’t know what to do with this much pleasure. He lifted his head to move his attention to her other breast and she took advantage of the space between them.

  “Wait,” she said again.

  He sucked in a breath and seemed to shake himself out of the lustful daze he’d been in, and he finally met her gaze, a question in his eyes.

  “I need to say something.” She licked her lips nervously, and bit at her bottom lip, and his eyes followed the movement.

  “Say it quick, baby, because I’m losing control fast here.”

  “I just wanted to say that it’s been awhile since I’ve done this.”

  He froze completely against her and the unreadable mask he used when he was working shuttered over his face. She felt the blood rush to her cheeks, and almost rolled her eyes at the words that had actually come out of her mouth.

  Of course he knows you haven’t done this in a while. Idiot.

  “That’s not what I mean,” she hurried on. “Not exactly. It’s not a big deal. I just want to make sure you tell me if I do something—” She paused for a second, searching for the word. “Wrong,” she blurted out. “Or something you don’t like. I’m just out of practice.” The words left her in a rush and she wondered if there was a rock big enough to crawl under.

  CHAPTER SIX

  Max’s senses came back to him in a hurry after her confession. He could only blame his ineptness on the need to be inside her so badly. As it was, his balls were drawn so close to his body that he could practically feel the come ready to spurt from his cock.

  He was insane. That was his only excuse. He didn’t know what he’d been thinking. No, he hadn’t been thinking. That was the problem. But he was about to rectify that. She deserved more than a fast fuck in the front seat of a car.

  He knew she wasn’t experienced. Donovan had shared in confidence on a mission once that he had been Jade’s first and only lover, and he’d loved the fact that she’d only belonged to him. She was giving herself to him, despite her anxiety and her inexperience, and he would cherish the gift as much as Donovan had.

  “Jade,” he breathed out, taking her flushed cheeks between his palms. He leaned forward and kissed her once—softly—and then lifted her so he could sit up and reach the door handle. He thanked God he lived in the middle of such remoteness because otherwise they were sure to be arrested.

  He opened the car door and she immediately covered her breasts, struggling to get off his lap. Confusion flittered across her face and he kissed the underside of her jaw before wrapping his arms around her and lifting her physically from the vehicle. Jade was almost as tall as he was, but once his feet were steady on the ground he swept her up in his arms and watched the surprise light across her features.

  “What—”

  “Ssh, baby. I’ll take care of you. I’ll make this right.”

  “There was nothing wrong before,” she protested. “Have you changed your mind?”

  “Far from it,” he said, kicking the car door shut with the bottom of his foot. “I just remembered the best things are worth doing right. But just a warning, I probably won’t get it right until the second time. I’m pretty sure I won’t last long once I finally get inside you.” Her mouth opened in surprise and he leaned down to nip at her bottom lip. “But I’ll make it up to you,” he said. “I promise.”

  He carried her easily up the porch steps and to the front door and called out his name for the voice recognition program he had installed, and then he said the code aloud to override the system. The front door opened silently and he carried her into the cool darkness of his home. The door locked automatically behind him and he carried her straight to the back of the house, to the bedroom he rarely had time to sleep in.

  The shutters were pulled over the windows, but he didn’t need the light to see his way. He felt her flesh pebble and a shiver rush through her body as the cold breeze from the air conditioner blew across her skin. His bedroom was large and the oversized bed dominated the middle of the room. The sheets and down comforter were white because he hadn’t had time to mess with anything but the basics.

  Max set her on her feet and then pushed her back so she sat on the side of the bed, and then he turned the dial above his nightstand so a light glowed just over the bed, casting them in a soft wash of light. He kneeled in front of her, unlacing her boots and pulling them from her feet. He pulled off her socks next and then rubbed the arch of each foot, moving his thumb in slow circles as she moaned at the unexpected pleasure.

  Her gaze was wide and curious, the insane passion they’d shared before banked, but still burning in her emerald eyes.

  “You don’t have to do this,” she said, touching the side of his face with her hand. “I’m not glass. I won’t break.”

  “I know. But I’m bigger than you. I can do what I want,” he said, grinning.

  He was so hard he hurt, and he wanted her more than he had the first time he saw her, but he relaxed as he saw the fire light in her eyes at his words. He realized this was the first time he’d ever been completely comfortable with a lover. Jade was his friend first—he knew all her quirks and faults and strengths—and he knew they’d find their way with each other in bed just as they’d found their way outside of it.

  He helped her to her feet and then quickly stripped off her pants so she was left in nothing but a pair of black boyshort panties. He looked up her body from where he knelt and watched as her head dropped back on her shoulders, almost in surrender. He kissed the top of her thigh and then higher, just above her hip bone, before slipping his fingers beneath the edge of her panties and pulling them down.

  “God, Jade,” he said, the words choked at the sight of her womanly flesh. “So pretty.”

  A small patch of soft black curls sat just above the swollen nubbin of her clit and the completely bare folds beneath. He touched one of the creamy folds gently, delicately spreading her juices around the entrance of her pussy. His finger barely slid inside her and he groaned as she clamped and shuddered around him.

  “Max—”

  “Ssh, baby. Let me see all of you.” He guided her back to the edge of the bed and pushed her down gently. Her skin was dark against the stark white of the comforter and she watched him out of hungry eyes. That look made it hard for him to remember that he was going to go slow and take his time.

  He quickly unlaced his boots and tossed them aside, and then stood and pushed his jeans down, stepping out of them, while he watched her eyes get bigger and bigger at the sight of him. She licked her lips again while she stared at his cock, and he almost came then and there. He clamped his fist around the base of his cock and then took a deep breath to get himself back under control.

  “Don’t take this the wrong way, but that looks painful,” she said. “For me, I mean. Holy shit, Max.”

  He laughed, but the sound was strained. “We’re going to fit like we were made for each other. Put your heels on the edge of the bed.” His voice rasped the words and his mouth went dry as she did as he asked. “See, already I can see how ready you are for me. Your pussy is glistening for me, your clit swollen. Oh, yeah, we’ll fit like hand and glove. I’m going to sink right in.”

  She whimpered, her hips shifting greedily as she waited for him to take his place between her thighs. His fingers touched lightly up her leg, swirling over her knee, and then higher until he pressed against her thighs and had them splaying open wider. He leaned forward and kissed her taut belly, licking and nipping his way up until his lips opened and he suckled at her nipple. She jumped beneath him and her hands came up and grasped his upp
er arms, her nails biting into his flesh.

  “No, don’t stop,” she cried as he released her nipple with an audible pop and kissed his way back down to the sweet folds of her pussy.

  “Do you know how long I’ve waited to taste you here?” he asked, kissing just above her pubic bone.

  He looked up her body from where he knelt between her legs and her eyes burned with the fire of his touch. His gaze stayed steady on hers as his tongue slid up the syrupy seam of her pussy until he found the swollen bud of her clit. And then his eyes shuttered closed and he was lost in the taste of her.

  ***

  Jade thought she knew what to expect—what it would feel like to have Max’s mouth on her there—but the heat of his tongue and the way he seemed to know exactly where to lick and suck had her going wild almost as soon as he touched her.

  His tongue rasped across the sensitive bud, over and over, until she was straining against his mouth. If he’d only press a little harder, move a little faster, she’d be able to reach that pinnacle.

  “Please, Max—don’t tease,” she said, her head moving back and forth against the sheets. He spread her legs wider, opened her further, and his tongue moved lower, kissing the weeping entrance of her vagina.

  “God, Jade. You taste so sweet. Better than I imagined. And look how wet you are for me.” His finger probed at the entrance of her pussy, dipping inside once before he added another finger.

  She felt stretched to the limit, even with only his fingers, and she sucked in a breath as he worked them slowly inside, preparing her for more. Her body arched and her breasts ached as his mouth joined his fingers, and she reached for his head, her fingers tangling in his hair as she pulled him closer. She felt the orgasm building, her body tightening and straining against every lash of his tongue. And then his fingers curled inside of her, finding the sensitive flesh that was sure to drive her mad.

  “Max!” she screamed as his tongue moved faster and faster. Perspiration sheened on her skin and her body went molten as little electric shocks pulsed in her clit and shot through her body. Her hips bucked against his face and mewling cries grew louder and louder as she spun into oblivion and exploded against his lips.

  “Fuck, you are so beautiful,” he said, pulling away.

  “No, don’t leave me,” she begged. “More—more.”

  “I’m not going anywhere, sweetheart.”

  He scooted her farther into the center of the bed and crawled between her open thighs.

  “Shit.” He closed his eyes and gritted his teeth. “Condoms. I don’t have any here. Please tell me you’re on the pill.”

  “I’m protected,” she finally managed to say.

  “Thank God, because otherwise you and I were about to make a baby. I’m going to shoot so deep and far inside of you, that would be the only outcome.”

  Jade froze as emotional pain overwhelmed her, but he didn’t seem to notice the change in her. She could do this. She wanted him, and her body was throbbing with need. All she had to do was turn off her mind and just feel.

  He hooked her knees over his shoulders and held open the lips of her pussy with his fingers, watching her from dark hooded eyes. Just that small touch was enough to get her back in the game. He grasped his cock in his hand and rubbed the thick head against the opening of her slit.

  “Watch, baby. Watch me take you.”

  Jade couldn’t tear her eyes away. He pushed the head in slowly, splitting her in two as he worked his way inside of her. She sucked in a startled breath and her vaginal muscles flexed around him as he kept pushing. Her tissues were swollen and his fingers hadn’t been preparation enough for the size of him, no matter what he’d said about them fitting like hand and glove. She whimpered as his thumb began to rub her clit in circles, and he had to pull out and push in several times before he was finally buried to the hilt.

  She took a deep breath once he was seated fully inside of her, and even that tiny movement made little electric shocks sizzle across her skin and gather in her womb. She relaxed around him and tried to focus on breathing.

  “Fuck. I’m not going to last. It’s been too long.” Sweat glistened on his skin at the effort it took to hold back, and he closed his eyes and clamped his jaw shut so the cords in his neck stood out at the effort.

  He pulled all the way out again, so just the head was still buried inside of her, and the sight of her juices coating his cock was enough to have her hips rising and searching for him. The discomfort quickly turned to pleasure as he pushed back in to the hilt. She flexed her muscles around him again and he gritted his teeth even harder.

  “God, don’t move.”

  “Look at me, Max,” she said, waiting until his eyes opened and settled on her.

  His eyes glowed brilliant blue and she could see the control he was fighting to maintain. Her hands reached out and touched his chest and she drew them down his body until they reached where they were intimately joined. She licked her lips and tightened her vaginal muscles once more, loving the way his gaze darkened and became even hungrier for her. And then she trailed her hands over her stomach and up higher until she cupped her breasts and tweaked her nipples between her finger and thumb.

  “What are you waiting for?” she asked. “Fuck me. Hard.”

  Wildness entered his eyes a second before he came down on top of her, and she screamed out his name as he gave her exactly what she’d asked for. His thrusts were hard and deep, and his long fought control shattered as he gave in to the beast inside of him. Her heels dug into his flanks and her nails bit into the skin of his back as her hips raised to meet him.

  “Yes, yes,” she cried as she felt the pressure building inside of her, spreading from her womb and through her whole body. Their eyes locked and held as she tightened around him.

  “That’s it, baby. Come for me. Milk my cock.”

  Her eyes fluttered closed and she let go as the orgasm overtook her and sent her spiraling and shuddering out of control. He stiffened above her and shouted her name as he erupted inside of her, each spurt of hot come felt straight to her soul.

  They collapsed in each other’s arms, a sweaty, tangled heap, and Jade felt a single tear escape from her closed lids. What she and Max had just shared had been more than she’d expected—more than she’d hoped for—and she felt the memory of her husband slip further away as she began this new chapter of her life. It wasn’t a tear of sadness—or maybe just a little—but a realization that there was no turning back.

  Being with Max had shaken her to the core. He’d been her friend first, and she’d loved him as a friend. But that love had shifted now that he was actually her lover. Despair filled her soul as she realized that she could love again—that it did happen twice. But she could never keep hold of the man in her arms. The clarity of it hit her in the face like a slap. It would be best if this mission and their affair ended quickly, and then she could go back to her life and Max could move on to the next woman.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  Max felt her try to draw away, and he somehow found the strength to lift himself so he could see her face. Her eyes were closed and a single tear coursed down her cheek, and he wondered if she regretted what they’d just done.

  He knew without a doubt nothing in his life would ever be the same. Nothing had ever felt as right as being connected with Jade mind, body and soul, and he knew he was thirty-six years old and could say he hadn’t realized what making love was until just now. It made a difference when you actually loved the person you were inside of.

  He wiped the tear away with his thumb. “Did I hurt you?”

  Her tear-drenched eyes opened and she shook her head. “No. You didn’t hurt me. I’m just a little overwhelmed. I wasn’t expecting it to be so—powerful.”

  “I’d never ask for you to forget him,” he said softly. “He was a good man, and he loved you.”

  “I know that. I wasn’t thinking about him. Not really.” She licked her lips and he leaned down to kiss her before he pulled out of
her and rolled to the side. He gathered her in his arms and brought her close, so they were face to face. “It’s just—I feel like I’ve broken away from that part of my life. Almost as if it never happened.”

  “Shh—” he said, touching the side of her face. “Of course it happened. And no one, least of all me, would ever want you to forget what you had with Donovan. But you need to know that I think he’d be proud of the woman you are now. The strength you’ve shown over the last couple of years. And I think he’d give his blessing that you chose me.” The tears she’d been fighting fell down her cheeks, and he kissed each one away. “And I think if he were talking to me, he’d slap me on the back—God, he had giant hands, didn’t he?” he said, making her smile. “Then he’d warn me that I’d better love you the way you deserved or he’d make me sorry.”

  Her smile froze and panic shone in her eyes, but he put his finger over her lips when she opened her mouth to speak, halting the denial he knew would come out of them.

  “And I’d tell him he didn’t need to worry. Because I’ve always loved you the way you deserved. Even when you belonged to someone else.”

  Her breath hitched on a sob and she rolled out of his arms until she lay flat on her back. Something felt like it was ripping inside of him. It was obvious she wasn’t comfortable with his confession, and he tried to tell himself it was okay. That she probably just needed time. But part of him wondered if she had no deep feelings for him—wondered if he was just someone she felt comfortable with to move onto this next stage in her life.

  She scrubbed her hands over her face and then sat up on the side of the bed, so her back was to him. “You think maybe we could grab something to eat?” she asked. “I’m starving.”

  He stayed silent for only a second, reminding himself to be patient. “Sure. I’ll grab the groceries out of the car and you can grab a shower. Then you can cook while I get my own shower.”